Top of the Blog: IN THE VIP lay in bed together. It was impossible for us to resist kissing and caressing each other. Being next to her in bed like that always gave me this incredible relaxed feeling. Over the summer I'd become so comfortable with her that lying around naked between the rounds of sex felt natural, it felt right. That alone was enough for me to know I wanted this to last forever. I couldn't imagine ever finding this feeling with another woman. Ellen grew quiet during that hour and I could tell she was struggling with her own emotions again. Hurting her was the only thing that made me doubt our relationship. Seeing the pain on her face I hugged her close. Though she didn't say anything she knew what it was for and took comfort from my tender embrace.